Happy Independence Day!

Whats my most important post-divorce revelation?

That  I am this wonderfully empowered, INDEPENDENT woman. WOO!

Right?

Kind of.

So there are some things about me, and many people...that we don't like to admit. In this case its that we need other people (as a species...for attention, affection etc).
Of course I can pay my own bills. And of course I can be alone. I go to eat alone, to the movies, to the bathroom (referring to my not needing to go in a group to the ladies room with other ladies to 'powder my nose'). I'm quite independent. More-so than ever before.

But then there are some shifts that happened in my life recently...
One of the biggest changes is that I got a roommate.

This is the first time I've ever had a legit roomie! It's definitely been a learning experience. We've fought, shared problems, shared joys, and lastly but helpfully- bills. It's nice knowing that somebody is home most of the time. And while it's technically my apartment on paper- in practice it's nice sharing a space with somebody who is so complementary to my life/lifestyle and equally as nice having it be OUR apartment. And it's a better space with both of our contributions. Plus she's pretty much my sister. I love her dearly and am happy that we are (I don't care how gay this sounds- and it definitely sounds gay) sharing our lives right now. Things will change one day but I'll be happy we had this time together.

Also- something I won't elaborate on because it's in the embryonic stages-but is a big step for me since I didn't expect myself to meet a man who makes me smile and laugh effortlessly despite being 100 miles away.
Yeah, so I, um-uh...I have a boyfriend (who may or not be reading this). No details b/c I'm not ready to share too much about that yet believe it or not...
But for the record, he's pretty fucking great. And being as I don't see him a lot (yes, it's medium distance- because he isn't too far away...Philadelphia) it allows me (and him)- the space to still have my own life and identity still. Though I'm just happy that I get to get to know him. He is probably the funniest person I know.
It did happen suddenly- And I partly feel like I was too aggressive. But he doesn't seem to mind, and lord knows I can't help but be myself...It's nice to know there's a fella who's a 'fan' of mine.

And here we are halfway to the end of this year. SO much has gone on. I'm getting to a really happy place- my demons have been addressed, my wounds have healed, and I've gained the kind of perspective on life that has garnered me new understanding of myself.
... And on the cusp of 30, I've decided that my 20's need to be sent off with style. I wanted to find an activity that truly captures the essence of and celebrates the end of a really intense decade.
I'm going to take a trapeze class. It's simple, fun, and is just symbolic enough to make me feel a sense of closure. I've invited people to join me, but I'm perfectly content doing this- like all the important things you do in life- Independently.