...A lot.
I realized that my last entry, written only a mere few hours ago paints a picture of me longing for a past that I willingly walked away from.
Seriously...I don't miss SO much about that man.
The fighting, the feeling misunderstood ALL THE TIME, having to make compromises on things that are important to me (and me asking him to do the same, which made me feel terrible also...). Never going anywhere or doing anything exciting. The feeling that we were always waiting for something to go wrong, and by we I mean him.
I think that the distance between us has allowed us to grow. He seems to be like a different guy. I know I'm a different girl, already 5 months divorced and on my own...I guess we're all different people every day. Maybe I just like who he's grown into a bit more. Or maybe I'm just still the same person who will always look for the good in others despite the glaringly terrible qualities that I really shouldn't so easily dismiss.
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