My Lobster...

Today while talking to a friend on the way to an appointment- while in traffic on the Long Island Expressway, I recalled one of my many epiphanies. Would that be considered a re-piphany?

The relationship you have with yourself dictates the relationship others will have with you.

For example, lets say you don't like yourself very much. Most people don't willingly acknowledge this, let alone share this with others conscientiously- but this determines how you allow others to treat you. If you minimize your accomplishments- so will everyone else. If you don't know your worth- neither will anyone else. If you disrespect yourself, so will everyone else. Knowing your value as a human being and loving yourself (not masturbating, LOVING the person you are as a whole despite the inevitable flaws...) allows others to see your worth and love you for who you are.


But I digress...

So I realized that because I know my worth and I value myself as a whole...I need to stop worrying about the men who traipse in and don't meet my expectations. Lately it's been preeeettttty disappointing. None of these guys are bad people...in fact, I'm happy that I met each one of them. Everyone you meet has some kind of impact on your life. These guys just remind me of how great the right guy is going to be.

But, that being said- I want to say that my hiatus is back ON until further notice. The hiatus means, my relationship with myself is going to be front and center until a worthy candidate enters the picture.
Sigh...sometimes I wonder how I'll ever find my lobster (well, the Ross to my Rachael),the Jim to my Pam,the Marshall to my Lily.

(Don't judge me. TV couples aren't realistic but seriously- those are enviable dynamics no?)

But the great things is, one day I know I will.